Sorry

It's been a while. My life is like trying to fit 10 lbs of shit into a 5 lbs shit bag. So for the one or two kindred souls who care, here you go.

My life is like some weird trip.

It is crazy. My youngest baby has been in the hospital for the past 4 days. She got transfered to Fairfax and while I was walking in to do the paperwork a huge lime pulled up. One of the men in it was one of the first B-ball players I was ever exposed to, Curly Neal. Remember when the Globetrotters were on Scooby Doo? I do nearly 27 years after watching that episode. I ran to the gift shop and bought a camera to get a picture of myself with him. Unfortunately the cashier was an extremely old lady who liked to talk. By the time I got out of the shop, Curly was gone. All I have is the memory now. Shit, I should have at least shook his hand. All I could do was nod at him with a big grin. Man I am a retard.

There is nothing the Road cannot heal.

This chorus will not leave my subconscious. I think the supreme being might be telling me something, time to get going.

Need a new Muse

For the few people who read this, I have been uninspired. Life just revolves around work and kids. Need some insanity. Will write more when I am inspired.

I saw this bumper sticker today.

I could not find a picture of the sticker itself, but it is the same image. Come on people, seriously.

Could you be the one?

Life is complacent. Need a muse. Need to feel the wheels hitting the road. Inspiration is lacking. The cold is wearing away at my soul, I need to breathe in some fresh air. I have started seriously thinking about moving. It will be difficult, with job and kids here, but I have that itch. Maybe I just want to have a fresh slate to be able to write my history anew. Could be that the spirit of the universe is really pushing me that way, not sure. All I know is I am tired of being bored. Doubting that I was truly created for the rat race, I feel more akin to a gypsy. Enough of my lonely evening ideas.

Dang.

I am getting tired of this commuting/living in the suburbs thing. My solution is not to move to the city, it is to move far away. I want to build a compound. Not some religious, crazy one. Just a place where I don't have to deal with people. No traffic. Serenity. Need to figure out a job where I can telecommute and make this dream a reality. I don't hate all people, but I would just like to be able to pick the ones I want to hang with. The need for a simpler life has come. Not sure if it comes with age or having kids, but I just don't care for all of the complications that life seems to have. Donations are welcome.

What Jail is Like?

Seriously, if you have to be locked up, this is as good as it gets. Shit if this happened in America, I might become a petty criminal. Thu Jan 15, 8:35 pm ET MADRID, Spain – A prison guards' union said a female stripper performed at a Spanish jail and authorities did nothing to stop it. The union says the woman took her clothes off before male inmates Jan. 2 and committed several lewd acts at the prison in Picassent in the eastern Valencia region. An official with the Spanish Penitentiary System called it an inappropriate "musical performance" and said an investigation was trying to find out who authorized it. The union called ACAIP reported the event in a complaint filed Jan. 8 with the prison system and reported Thursday in Spanish media. The complaint said a female deputy warden witnessed the striptease in a recreation area and did not stop it. It says several female guards left the room in disgust.

Take your 4 Seasons and Shove it.

I dislike the cold, a whole bunch. There is no redeeming value in my mind once the temperature drops below 40-50 degrees. Most people within my life (work, family, friends) will hear me bitch about it all of time. 90 percent come back with the "I really enjoy all four seasons and would not want to live somewhere where it is warm all year round" line. Fine, but you are a retard. My hands are cracking and my face looks sunburned. I was nearly bowled over by the wind today on my voyage into work. Sorry fuckers, but give me warm all year round and I will be a happy dude. Once you graduate from school, there should be no reason to enjoy snow. Unless you don't work and don't have to drive. It is not so beautiful when you sit on 95 for 3 hours, huh? I am tired of my feet being cold, my face being wind burnt and my hands cracking. Give me warm weather and cute girls wearing sundress any day of the year.

Emo Kids.

Seriously, how do they fit into those jeans. I will never and have never understood, seeing as I have been "husky" my whole life. I just don't understand, thats all.

I bleed Black

I want to take sometime to say thanks for to the Steelers. I love you guys, you truly make life bearable when you win. I ask for 2 more wins, that's it. All season I've had that feeling, a Super Bowl feeling. The Ravens are the biggest douche bags in the world. I will not be able to watch the Super Bowl if they are in it. Don't let me down.

Random Stuff 1-7-09

-My commute took 2 1/2 hours today. Not sure if I can deal with 30 more years of that shit. -The Beatles rule, still. Got 3 of their albums for Christmas (Rubber Soul, Sgt. Peppers, Abbey Road). There has not been a popular band since them who are that good. Turn on the local Top 40 radio station and listen, yep it sucks. -Good new music. Darker My Love, great band and their album entitled 2 is amazing. If you are into swirling pop/rock music that does not just sound like a rip off of My Bloody Valentine, this is for you. Their members come from one of my favorite hardcore band from the old VFW days, the Nerve Agents. -Suprisingly good book, Billy "Superstar" Grahams book "Tangled Ropes." I grew up wasting all of my weekends on early to mid 80's wrestling and this hits the mark. What ever went wrong with that once great sport. It use to be some weird, lo-fi sideshow. Now they are turning it into some dumb hi-fi bullshit. Haven't messed with it in 20 years, but still have mad love for the old days. -Andy Kaufman. Genius.

Coming back from the underground.

I have been a member of Facebook for a year or so. I just put a picture and posted my info due to the wave of people deleting their myspace accounts and moving to greener pastures. Quite frankly I did not want to see many people from my past, I hardly remember it and I am not sure how much more I want to learn. The whole idea of living in the past is not extremely interesting to me. Maybe it is due to the fact I am having severe hairline issues and am quickly approaching middle age, but I do have some recent interest in revisiting my past. It has been pretty overwhelming, tons of people whom I have not seen since June 1996, back in my life. Very wild stuff I tell ya. So I am kind of on a quest to connect the dots to my past. Shit, I even opened up some of my old year books to retrieve some of these memories. I was kind of surprised to see the number of phone numbers from the ladies in there and how stupid I was never to pursue the matter further. There were also a number of things in there about me being "unique." I kind of digged seeing that I was even going against the grain in the worst times for conformity. I'd like to think with old age I have held on to a number of those enduring qualities while ridding myself of those of the less enduring nature.

Now that everything in the world has changed!

So at midnight last night everything changed. All of our sins were wiped clear and now we have a fresh start! At the part last night that I attended everyone wanted me to get festive and utilize the party supplies that were provided. Well I just don't play that game. I have never seen anything special about the New Year. Go ahead and ask me about my resolutions. NONE. Those are just a load of garbage that will further depress me because I most likely will not be able to keep up with them. Sure, I would love to quit smoking, excercise more or save a lot more money. I just am not counting on it, so why set myself up for further disappointment? Everyone thinks I am extremely negative, I just think that I have a clearer vision than most. Have to go back to work tommorrow, not looking forward to it. Just a couple of years ago having this much time off would send me near a nervous breakdown. I needed order in my life or else I would go way to deep into thinking about life. Nowadays I really enjoy relaxing and being by myself. I need to cultivate a positive attitude and reset my body for the daily grind again. Should have taken the day off, but I was hoping our CEO would give it to us. Oh well, I guess I will survive. I will miss those mid day naps and sleeping in as late as I want, man that is some good stuff.